hmmm...was reading thru some of my journals....not these online ones but those i hand written...i remembered one of those written during 1995....i was going thru a bad patch...a rather rough one...almost left church...almost lost sight of the light at the tunnel

" i was crying out to the Lord one night, I heard an audible voice going,"Do not give up a Perfect God for imperfect Men". I was totally flabbergasted at this revelation....it struck a chord within me...why am i struggling to giveup everything for some pple who are purposely doing somethings to turn me off...why am i giving up coz the pple ard me are giving up...why am i following wat the rest of the gang is doing....why am i following their gossipping and retailating ways....why am i ....why...why...why "

Today is like 8 years down the road, i no longer am affected at who leaves church or tries to talk bad abt some pple in church. Pls do not be mistaken...not that i do not have a compassionate heart but just that i have resoluted in my own heart that i will not follow them no matter how close or kum-qin they r with me...i have learnt to discern my frenz....this is a lesson i learnt thru these 8 years...really apart from all those bible lessons and knowledge within me...this is one of those truths which i abide by....

why am i blogging like this...i am reminded of those days today when i saw someone from those days this morning...hahaha...i am a person who values frenship above all else...really....i will never leave a fren in the lurch one lor...i am a firm believer in yi qi through my many years of influence from my elders...sigh