September 20, 2005

I tink i always hate this day of the month according to the lunar calanedar.. the 16th day...
Why... Coz this is the day where i based my dreams on... this was the day where dreams turned to ... ....

Watever...

Even as i type this.. i still having strange vibes.... maybe i really ought to move on much further... though i really tink i m much beta now...

bt i m really peeved...

nevermind.. maybe this si juz another bad day... maybe maybe.. itz juz me nursin my heart.. and watz left of it..

i cannot find myself goin into another relationship really... though i feel lonely alot of times.. though there are some pple who gives me very good vibes.. but i juz cannot imagine myself being put thru the pain again... the pain of being thrashed inside out.. the gutting feeling of my heart being torn... the feeling of seein and yet not being able to grasp...

i cannot be hurt again.. My facade might seem to be strong & heck-care but deep down i guess i m juz another one of those emo guys.. (Not homo but emo , okay !) i am in touch with my feelings .. juz that i put up a front.. pple who knows me know how tough a time i had... but i guess that'z me.. i never found it ez to give up sumthing which i gave up my heart to..

i really am tired of the garb that "You're so old already.. when u gettin a GF" "When i can drink ur tea" "When you gonna show us your closet GF" ... !@#@#%$$#@!%~ .. how..

All i can do is smile and walk away

2 comments:

Natsu の Umi said...

Wahlao... if feeling emo and read this post... I will cry.. (I actually did)...

Sigh... what to do? When fate still not here... there will be lots of heart breaks.

Learn from experience...

Jesuafreak said...

fate.. haha.. i actually hate that 4 letter word..

really