This marks a year of pain, hurt & emotional topsy turvy which i've never felt so intensely before with another homo-sapien..

Every now and then, i would look at my Aug calendar and see that name staring back at me. All I have of her is memories of us. She moved house, changed HP number. Heck, tink the only thing she din change is her heart...Wahahaha.. For all i know its has been changed too.

Its her birthday soon, 3 days to be exact..10 Aug. It was also our first date. Another lamer excuse by me to date her out.

She existed in my circles for less than a year but yet she had left a very deep impression on me. One cut so deep that that i was hung out to dry.

I still remember the very words she said to me and it still lingers in my mind with a bitter aftertaste.

Between then and now i have seen her afew times. Mostly were from a distance. I stood from opposite her school to catch a glimpse of her going home in a cab. I stood 2 streets away from her office entrance to see if she has a umbrella. I walked on the opposite street at nite to make sure no harm fell to her.

Am i dumb.
Am i stoopid.

My heart feels thrashed and ripped even as i m typin this.. many pple tinks i m dumb.. many thot i was dumped by her.. wat is the truth behind this all.. i am too tired to tink of it again.. to rake up the emotional turmoil again.. lets just eat drink and be merry..

Yes i admit that i still miss her.

1 more year to go. I doubt she remembers what i promised her. But i will remain true to my word. Man of Honour.

Dun catch the show isle okay... i caught it.. tink itz quite bad lor... dunno why it was not as good as the preview i guessed...

7 swords were Fantastic leh.. caught it in KL.. somemroe i caught it in cantonese.. so it was actually superb.. the fightin scenes were quite well done.. i liked it alot..

I read the online papers earlier... saw somthing which irked me..

the govt is moving to ban smokin in public areas...

Damn... firstly i dun tink itz possible to fully enforce this ban without the singaporean "fine" element being involved again as singaporeans have this inate fear of being fined.. and the best part is they get to enlarge our coffers for the Project:Gamblin-2009.. haha

i dun tink the govt is movin to eradicate the second hand smoke thingy lor..though who m i to question the almighty Govt.. But heck, i'm a human being created by God to use my bloody blain.. damn.. i love the last 2 words.. my encik used to say "Can u use ur Bloody Blains".. hahaha... okay okay.. deviate liaos.. beta get back..

Personally i tink itz more in terms of the amt of taxes they can increase in the years to come (tink revenue) and to make smoking into a luxury good.. no longer a poor man's habit.. Tink abt it, gone were the days when pple say smokin is to kill time and stress and boredom.. Nowadays pple worry abt between eating a proper meal or buying a packet of fags..

i seriously tink that we as humans have our rite to smoke as much as those who have a rite not to.. But i tink a compromise can be reached.. this way..

Non-smokers, Puhlease get urself a freakin N95 mask and get lost !!!