Tink itz been a long long while since i last wrote on anything else...

Hahaha.. maybe a haha or a lolx would be a good front for me to display..
To hide these emotions of mine .. To put up a facade..
A display of emotions ish probably deemed weak..

Many times i find myself falling into the pits of self-despair & alot of 'whys'..

I've managed to pick myself up each time and made myself trudge on..

Being in denial abt things are not good.. really.. yesterday i caught a show via cable TV.. The show was the 'ekin cheng / aaron kwok show'.. very nice.. but i really empathise and sympathise with aaron's role... Nan ren zui Tong.. do u know wat it is.. not the film name.. but a phrase which aaron uttered in his despair

To be left bahind w/o a reason is the hardest hit u can deleiver to a guy..
A guy is logical and would want things to be explained.. logically.. but nonetheless the other parties never learn this and always expects us to be in the know..

We're just your partners.. not the ringworm in your tummy..
we need to be told and instructed if necessary ..

i dunno why m i writing all these but i felt queasy after the show and felt a need to put it down to remind myself of not to fall in love again..

itz beta to just stop loving than to go thru the pain of being hurt..


Imperfect humans hurts you senselessly & unswervingly;
only a perfect God would know how to handle a delicate heart.

this is one of my fave short prose which i wrote....

What Doesnt Kill you ;
Will not necessary make you stronger, contrary to what others might say ;
It will incapacitate you ;
It will douse watever life that's left in you ;
It will clip your already broken wings ;
It only leaves you suffering a fate worst than dying.. the bittertaste of being abandoned.